When I was asked to write this article it dawned on my mind the impossibility of conveying this experience I am having and I hesitated knowing there is no human, that is in objective reality (or unreality I should say), that can understand these concepts because the understanding is the experience itself and has nothing to do with concepts. 

But I will try anyway.

I finally came to the realization after 30 years of searching for answers here, in this world, that I couldn’t find any solutions.  I had questions like, who am I?  Why am I here?  Why does everyone suffer and die?  And especially, where is God in this madhouse?  Etc… There was no answer or solution.

I tried everything!  I did a full circle.  I was poor and homeless. I consumed drugs and alcohol.  I was locked up in mental institutions and eventually prison.  I married four times, have four children, and I tried different careers.  Ending up what the world would call successful with a big house, fancy cars, housekeepers, hanging out at country clubs everyday, traveled, etc…   I tried religions, books, everything I could find and you know what, I was still pissed off, lonely and unhappy.  I looked around and saw the suffering, everyone was ageing, sick and dying.  I was the victim of this world and I couldn't find the escape hatch.  I finally did the only thing I knew… I gave up!!  I asked for help!!  I prayed and called out in desperation. 

I admitted I was powerless and I couldn't find the solution.  I was honest with myself for the first time in my life. 

It was then I was given A Course in Miracles and the 12 Step Program (which is a practical application of the Course).  I did the lessons and the steps until Boom! a miracle occurred and I experienced God.  I came into contact and communication with my higher power!  It was truly a miracle.  And my mind and life has been dramatically transformed beyond belief!

I diligently started working this program and now I see I am free, I have vision.  I was blind and now I see, a whole new experience a whole new me.  I finally know and experience peace, joy, happiness and love as my true essence.  Not outside me but as me.  I'm getting glimpses of another world (heaven is term we use).  Now I am a healer and miracle worker, going about my Father's business.  Eternal, happy and free!  I am growing and expanding beyond this world.

Here are the steps I took.  One, I admitted I was wrong (powerless) and I couldn't solve the problem.  Two, I came to believe in a Higher Power that could help me come into a true experience of joy.  I surrendered.  I asked for help.  I gave up.  I stopped searching, planning, thinking.  I let go and let God take over my life.

It work guys, it really works.  I am happy and free and all power has been given me.  God is taking care of me and doing for me what I could not accomplish.  Now I am serving Him and joyously helping others.