Step 7 is a fascinating and revealing place for you to be. Having completed your inventory steps, you've discovered fear-based corruption and murderous intent is your core. Lovely! Not something a walk in the park will fix.

The joy for you at this point, leading into this step, is that undoubtedly you're already experiencing miracles, which allows somewhat for trust: trust in a God who, up until moments ago, you had rejected in any and all ways possible. An honest step six would have had you praying for the willingness to be willing.

The question is, now that you are entirely ready, can He now remove those defects, every one?

Question: What would be the use of pain to you, what purpose would your suffering fulfill, and how would grief and loss avail you if insanity departs from you today and you accept your holiness instead?

You've held all your insanities in hidden places. Sheltering your sick illusions you have made hell for your self and it is sitting in front of you now, revealed in black and white. Free will didn't go very far, did it? Unaided by God, what we have called life is not eternal. It's life by another name, Death. To hold onto this inventory of sins is what death is.

Having had a good look at this, it doesn't take much encouragement to get you on your knees. You are further along than you think. Your necessity for God dependency is self evident and has surpassed your resistance sufficiently for this now to be the point of the Great Reversal of Effect and Cause. Your projected guilt and fear has been brought back to the causation point in your mind and God is already there.

Willingness to allow Him to facilitate the reversal of your mind from hatred and death to love and life is no small thing. Your entire conditional identity as a human being is going to disappear. Don't be afraid. God lifts you out of your dram of sin without a single judgment; just sheer joy his Son returns to Him in full communication! This is known as the Resurrection. The Son of God has resurrected and this moment is your full memory of that occurrence as being YOU! It's the discovery of your inherent sinlessness.

Personally, when I reached a point of recognition of my baffling necessity to hold on to what had already fallen apart--my relationship, my car, my license to drive my car, my “car driving related” job, my accommodations, my completely unmanageable other job, my body, and obviously my finances, all of which were gone or on their way out the door--it was quite clear to me the depth and nature of my addiction. I wanted to hold on with dear Death.

Humbly (as understated a word as one could choose) I declared to God my complete addiction to wanting him to fix all my shit my way, i.e. put it back the way it had been in the past, and in a brief moment of surrender I told him, “Take the lot. Take me. Get me out. I don't want anything to do with this world. I just want to extend the Kingdom to the Kingdom (as I was created to do and understood conceptually as being the truth).”

It was just a moment. But I had let go. I had let God. Immediately He rushed in. I was filled with Love so overwhelmingly and abundantly that anybody that came near me was immediately pulled into the rapturous joy of my resurrecting experience! The change of my mind was so dramatic it could only be expressed as a complete replacement, which is, at heart, what I so desperately wanted all along, and it was given me in my moment of prayer!! Thank you God.