The Spiritual Awakening is a Miracle given to me by God. From now on I have nothing to do with my life – I am a minister of God. Through the Grace of God I live and keep my sane life. I have to give it away.  

Step Twelve: "Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to other addicts and to practice these principles in all our affairs."  

An article on this step…

As an addict I think I have no choice. I choose over and over again the same substance that I am addicted to, may it be alcohol or drugs or sick thinking or death. This substance gives you an emotional rush that you are looking for. The thing is you always need more of that substance.

Through undertaking the 12 steps and having had a spiritual awakening, I know I have a choice. I can choose right now not to even think in the direction of my addiction. You think that this is not possible and you are right. I can't, but God can if I let him. I offer you a different experience of yourself and your little enclosure of thought system. There is nobody keeping you in your addiction mode.
  
You can choose to change right now if you wish. But that is exactly what the addiction is. You know you have a choice, but you choose over and over again and again and the rush of guilt you are getting out of it is exactly what you want. But I am talking about step 12 here. Having had a Spiritual Awakening…

The Spiritual Awakening is a Miracle given to me by God. From now on I have nothing to do with my life – I am a minister of God. Through the Grace of God I live and keep my sane life. I have to give it away. A few words about giving it away: Don't expect anything. If a person is given me by God to be healed, I have no idea about how it will look. I do my best in sharing my experience and leave the rest up to God. I have nothing to do with the actual healing, as I had nothing to do with my own awakening! This step tells me that I can only keep it when I give it away.

That's where I have to mention self-doubt. And I will just say two words that will help you with that: STOP IT!

You are the holy Son of God himself, who has given you everything that you need to give yourself away and be a healer and minister.

It's a vicious circle because you can only experience what you are by giving yourself away. So if you don't give yourself away you will never experience that you actually got it! Just jump!

My own personal experience is that only in the active denial of my addiction and surrender to God in every moment is my sanity restored to me. One day at a time. More so, one moment at a time. And in the moment where “I slip” (which is just another chance for me to experience myself), I immediately look for someone I can help. Even if I am by “myself” I just pray for someone. This works. I am the demonstration of that.

Now it's up to you. Don't wait. Now is the time of your prophecy of being who you are fulfilled. That's the only thing that is real. That's the only thing you can share. Change your reality in changing your mind. God bless you.